Tuesday, October 16, 2012

decisions decisions...

I haven't mentioned it in a while, but my J O B and I aren't friends.

I have had a few new followers lately (welcome!) so here is some back story...

I have worked as a waitress at CB for 3.5 years now. The longer I've worked there, the more responsibilities I've been given. Normal, right? I would say yes if my paycheck numbers started to skyrocket to the same beat. But I've been paid the same amount since the day I started. $6/hr plus tips. And in a privately owned restaurant that's lucky if it gets busy, the whole "plus tips" excuse for the below minimum wage doesn't really fly anymore. On top of that, it's a bottomless pit of drama, and is 90% responsible for how much of a cynical bitch I have become over the last 3 years.

The one good thing? I hold a lot of seniority, so I have the schedule that I want. And the thing with me? I tend to go through the calendar a couple months in advance, map out the holidays, and build my schedule around them. Because I am obsessed with Christmas, and so serving a bunch of alcoholics burnt french fries is not a viable reason to be open on that day. Sorry, no can do.

I don't love my schedule right now, but if it means holidays off, I can stick it out until January.

What I can't deal with until January is the constant decrease in how much my boss (the owner) cares about the business, the employees, and pretty much anyone but her and her friends when they come in to drink. The insane hypocrisy, the drama (still waiting for that reality show, E!), the fact that I have to bend over backwards to do my bosses job for the same pay as our worst waitress. After 3.5 years, it's really taking its toll.

Don't get me wrong, as a person, I love her, she's funny and fun and more or less a decent person. As a boss, I think it's becoming more and more obvious that she doesn't want to be a part of the restaurant anymore than her employees do.

After a couple years of threatening to leave, I think I am actually going to do it. Starbucks is looking better and better every day, but there is one little thing keeping me from going there and applying right now.

Those pesky holidays.

I know it is a stupid and immature reason to not want to work, especially since I don't have kids, and my family doesn't do anything spectacular for Christmas or Thanksgiving... but why do they have to? It's a holiday. The whole country gets it off except for people who work in stores? That's ridiculous. Grocery stores I can see being open for limited hours. But a coffee chain? Fine. I'd work Christmas Eve, but I'm worried that I wouldn't have enough pull for Thanksgiving or Christmas Day, which are both all-day affairs for the people I spend those days with.

So my question is... am I being stupid in subjecting myself to two more months of BS at the CB just because I want to save my holidays?

I feel so immature and childish, but outside of hospitals, I don't see a reason for businesses to remain open. I realize not everyone celebrates Christmas, but at the very least, Thanksgiving is pretty widely recognized, regardless of your religion.

Argh. I don't know. I was so excited (albeit nervous) to be able to walk into CB and give my notice. But now I feel like I should wait, because the holidays are more worth it to me.

What would you do?